i say..

I am happy to be with you,
cause you're the best thing i've ever had.
I want to be like those strong girls,
stay very firm in their relationships,
fight for their love ones,
I always wanted to be,
but when things happen i'm back to the weak me again.
Sometimes I feel tired and frustrated,
It's not that i don love you, or tired of loving you,
I had many unsuccessful relationships, broke up for uncountable times,
I wanted to be naive, wanted to say forever, i wanted to live my life like the princess in fairy tale,
but reality spells cruel, i know its not gonna be okay in the future,
distance relationship is more than we could imagine, i thought i can overcome this time,
but it seems like i've forgotten about the time,
and i truly dislike the fact that i'm gonna be 8 hours ahead of you,
telling me we're strong is not enough,
tell me who should i look for when i'm in trouble,
tell me who should i look for when i'm in tears,
tell me who should i look for when i need a listener,
I don want to go or think too far,
but I can't, I love you and I do care.
I watch movies, I read, I find jobs,
get myself busy and avoid from thinking.
When i heard that you're leaving, the same feeling came back again when ben told me he was leaving.
Sometimes it's not because of loneliness then i think bout you,
it's when i think of you i feel loneliness.