Sunday, December 26, 2010

our christmas.

First time in life, spent christmas with my loved one,
joy and fun,
i felt loved, always do..
young love is always tough, no matter what we choose,
it's easy falling apart from each other when we can't see and feel what's in front,
no one knows what we'll face,
i'm sorry i can't promise you for much, it's not impossible if one day we walk pass each other at somewhere with an only "hi" and those "how are you recently?it's been long" talks.
we both have a different road to walk, i wish i could hold on to you no matter what happens,
saying is always easy.
I love you, can still remember the way you looked at me last night in car,
it's different, the uneasy feeling before going home.
I felt teary inside, didn't know i couldn't bear to leave you this much.
I'll always support you and be there for you if you should need me when I'm still able to do that,
for what you've decided. 
I don want your hugs and kisses are given to other people,
but we will still have to see how fate brings us.
But one thing i'm sure, you'll never be erased, even if we become friends one day.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Work

have been really tired these days, i don like to wake up so early,
don like to work, ok now i admit its really not my cup of tea,
teaching students seriously needs lots of patience which is something i really lack of,
i was half shouting at them already so evil of me,
but this is what the principle wants, be as fierce as you can!good!i can even slap them i think. >:(
what's the worst thing is when you're mad or even shouting already some people won't even care,
they get happier when you're pissed,urghh,kids,not easy~
but some are really cute though, really really cute till you wanna squeezeeee them,
cute and smart, some are really sloooowwwww and really incorrigible,
so in order to make my life easier sometimes i'll just straight away write the answer for them in their book,
they're happy too so no harm done, teehee.
maybe i'll have to learn to be more independent so that i won't complain bout everything,
and thinking deeply if i were to live without parents what else can i do?
it's time to train myself, and soon tomorrow will be a challenge......

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Food

today my mum tried something new, cause i'm totally not into her fried bi hun,
so she cooked like the way i always ask her to dabao from outside,
though it would taste like shit so when she told me she's gonna try something new i didn't expect too much,
i'm not saying that she can't cook well, perhaps some of her dishes are really nice.
but undeniable it turned out to be quite good actually,
much better than the fried one, and i finished the whole plate.
God, call me a big eater, cause before eating the bi hun i ate bun, buscuits, a little rice with few dishes,
no wonder baby keep sighing when he sees my stomach now >.<

                                                     looks a little messy i know.

Monday, November 29, 2010

breakfast.

The weather is so fine <3
it's dark and windy which as usual, cheers me.
Still continue doing the same routine everyday,
Gosh i'm so amazing at times it entertains me!
 Had a heavy breakfast this morning,
i cooked myself :) , should be the first thing i manage to cook other than maggie mee,
it's macaroni mushroom and herb flavour which comes in a package, bought it the other day,
those i used to call "mao mao chong" before knowing the real name...
though it would be hard to cook cause usually my sister will the one cooking,but seemed like she was kinda busy,
so there i started, followed the recipe step by step, not as hard as expected,
added milk, water and butter before putting in the macoroni,
and kept stiring for about 7 minutes and then~~
i'm done! :D


 P/S~It's not grossy okay!cause it actually taste nice ^.^ felt *owek* after eating too much one go >.<

Sunday, November 28, 2010

说个故事给你听。

有一对夫妻,是每个人眼中的郎才女貌,
两人是从小玩到大的伴侣,
双方父母都看好他们,
女生的父亲很富有,自己经营一间大公司,
但有一天她的父母不幸发生意外生亡,
女生很难过,每天都活在自己的世界里,男生不惜一切照顾她,给她所有的关怀,
他接过女生父亲的公司,一切都打理得有模有样,公司不久后有回到了轨道,
很自然的,两个人结了婚。
婚后男生不再有那么多时间陪女生,每天都在公司忙到很晚,
女生起初也只有唠叨几句,但后来却变本加厉,
每天晚上都去喝酒,结交了坏朋友,
听了朋友的话,她在男生面前闹得很凶,
为的只是让他注意到女生的存在,
威胁他,甚至告诉他她将会把公司的股份全卖了,
其实女生哪敢呢,都是她那帮朋友在后面搞怪,偷偷把股份卖了,
男生向女生发了很大的脾气,女生说出了离婚两个字,希望能够被挽留,
但男生却答应了,他再也受不了她的无理取闹。
女生黯然离开了台湾,到美国升学,避开有关男生的一切,
两年的时间就这样过去了,
有一天女生无意间看到了杂志上的照片,那个她从没忘记过的脸盘,
杂志上的几个字伤透了她的心,得知男生在台湾发展得很好且定了婚,
她把手放在膝盖上头埋进手里哭了好一阵子,
朋友劝女生回去台湾把他追回来,那可是她深爱的男生啊,
她做了决定就马上飞回台湾,到了男生的公司去找他,
她一进了门就看见男生的手环着一位长得及清秀的女生的腰从电梯里走出来,
他的脸依然那么好看,但女生却找不回他温柔的眼神,现在他眼里剩下的只有冰冷,
她的心好痛,深怕被男生遇见了她连忙跳上的士里,
去了她向来最爱去的海边,呆上了一整天,在那里她无意中遇见了中学最要好的朋友,
朋友从她口中得知了一切,同情女生,便把她带回家让小女儿陪着她,
她和朋友的小女儿无话不谈,大姐姐和小妹妹整天粘在一起,
一天,女生的朋友约女生一起去逛街,偶然遇见了朋友的丈夫及小女儿,
那小女孩开心得跑过来,也没注意到路上一辆正向她飞驶过来的车,
女生的朋友冲出马路想就女儿,但一股力量来得比自己更快,
当她发现时,女孩已经躺在血中了,
是女生在千钧一刻中推开了小女孩牺牲了自己,
女生在闭上眼睛前唯一的心愿就是可以看男生多一眼,就那么一眼也好。。。
男生此刻在公司里,今天的心情极差,眼皮一直跳动着,放佛有什么事将会发生,
回到了自己的公寓,这是他的私人地方,连未婚妻都没踏入过,
他邹了邹眉头,走向自己的房间,却发现到棉被里似乎有人躺着,
他没有迟疑一秒钟就掀开了棉被,发现到女生正躺在里头,
看到了她,男生百感交集,这个曾经伤透了他的女生,如今却有脸再出现。。
女生被惊醒了,她望着男生,顿时之间她好开心好开心,终于能看见他了!
男生冷冷的丢下一句话,你为什么会在这里,不是应该在美吗?
女生也不懂为何自己会在这里,就胡乱编个理由。
男生默默无言离开了房间,女生走到镜子面前,突然间一切发生过的事反映在镜子上了,
她被送进医院里,朋友拉着女儿在一旁大哭,
她躺在病床上身体被插了好多只管,医生说,很难救的活了,
她看着在床上的自己,再摸摸现在的自己,是人?还是鬼?她绝望地看着自己,
她感觉到自己的体温,捏捏自己的脸也觉得好痛,
女生顿时发现到手上的生命线变短了好多,
短短的但又被分成30条,这意味着她只剩下30天了吗?
想到这里她第一时间冲出了房间,看到了男生并要求他让自己住下来,
就30天,30天过了她保证不再出现,不会惹他生气,男生虽然恨她,却忍不下心拒绝他,只好让她留下来。。
男生并没有把注意力放在她身上,他只顾对着电脑,女生也没打扰他
女生拿了件薄薄的被子躺在按摩椅上,因为她知道男生不愿和她一起睡,
向男生道了声晚安我先睡了,就闭上眼睛,
男生盯着她,知道她向来最怕冷了,便叫女生上床睡,
女生好开心,因为她知道男生还是在乎她的。
第二天早上,女生一早便醒来为男生做早餐,
男生被香味唤醒了,走到了厨房看见她忙碌的身子,
她以前从不煮饭不踏进厨房的。。
女生看见了男生给他一个最灿烂的笑容并叫他一起吃早餐,
男生不以为意,看了她一眼便出门上班了,
女生很气馁,眼泪都流了下来,但她连忙把眼泪擦了,
看到自己手上的生命线只剩下29条,她答应自己不会再在他面前流泪,
一定要让他看到最快乐的自己。
到了晚上,女生赶紧进厨房为他煮晚餐,煮了他最爱的五菜一汤,
切菜时女孩不小心切到了手指头,直觉地把手指放进嘴里吸,她惊奇地发现到自己并没有流血。。
煮好了便坐在客厅里等男生到家。。
男生这时在外头和未婚妻一起吃晚餐,
男生对未婚妻其实并没有感情,只是觉得时间到了,该为自己找个适合的女生结婚,
生个孩子继承他的事业,未婚妻对男生有的也只是尊重。。
女生等啊等,7 点过了,8点过了,9点,10点。。
她知道男生不会回来吃了,用保鲜纸把菜都包好放进冰箱内,便去睡了,
男生不久后回到了家,看到女生躺在床上睡着了,便看着她,他有多久没看到她了?
男生发觉他不该这样,于是他走开了,开了冰箱拿水喝,却发现里面有好几碗菜,知道是女生为他煮的,心突然揪了起来。。
接下来的日子里两人相处得越来越和睦了,女生依然帮男生煮每一顿饭。。有一晚男生忍不住亲吻了女生,
他觉得他做错了,想逃避女生所以有好几天都不回家,女生知道自己没剩下多少时间,
却又相见男生,就不顾天气有多冷,站在公司外等了几天,
男生发现了很生气,气她为什么不顾自己的身体,气她为何不直接走进公司找他。。
男生拉着女生的手带她回家,无意间女生的脚被桌子撞到了,男生知道女生的皮肤像小宝宝似的,被撞到一定会一片青一片紫的,但他却找不到任何的伤痕,女生则心虚地朝他笑一笑。。
已经是最后一天了,男生不知道女生会不会如同自己所说的不再打扰他,
他其实不舍得她走,他不想再让她离开自己了,
当男生到家时他发现女生已经不在了,只剩下她的香味飘佛在空气里,
他气自己的无能,没能把她留下来,女孩消失了,他永远记得她眼里对他透漏的爱意。。
这时在医院里,医生对女生的朋友说只能放弃了,已经拖了一个月了女生还是动也不动,但女生的朋友不肯,
只要有一线希望都不可以放弃,女生的朋友知道现在只能找女生的前丈夫了,因为她无亲无戚。。
当男生接到电话时他几乎崩溃了,他不想相信,却发了疯似地赶到了医院,
看到病床上挂着的日期,眼里剩下的只有眼泪。。
她早在一个月前已经发生了车祸。。
他不停地对她说话,每天都到医院陪她,他的眼泪不经意地滴在女生的脸上。。
女生一直在黑暗里走啊走,走到好累好想停下来了,可是有一个声音不断地在喊着,喊着她的名字,这声音好熟悉。
女生的手指稍微动了动,眼睛慢慢地睁开了,
男生激动地起身抱了抱他,命令她再也不许离开了,女生笑了。。
到后来两人还是搞不懂女生昏迷时所发生的事`。。。

Saturday, November 27, 2010

hehe got to see baby again today! <3
missing him badly already :(
love swimming with him,
although we didn't really swim every time
but time passed so fast when we're together.
Did something incredible,lmao~
must be the craziest thing i've done in my life,
couldn't stop laughing x)
what can i say? we really can do everything when the desire comes *evil grins*
we took few pictures too! woots~~
come baby, lets enjoy the pictures together heehee~
taddaaa~~copyright ^^

bb's gong gong smile :D

his *all fat* body x)




ugly face :(



Friday, November 26, 2010

Question mark.

I often question myself what do i really want in my life?
fun?stability?or just wanna run away from loneliness?
obviously don have an answer yet or not i won't be writing all these and always make myself in dilemma,
it all comes with mood, sometimes i prefer to be as free as a bird,
sometimes i would rather just stay and wait for time to pass, let loneliness kills me,
I wanted to stop dreaming,
but whenever  hear the name my heart starts beating again,
the desire, i guess.
And i don't know when will be the time that,
when i hear of it i can just ignore, and walk away.

Friday~

*yawn* early in the morning :(
baby having class nobody pei me.
blog blog blog,
wish i could spend more time with him,
but he is Mr busyyyy~
have to get used to it too from now on.hee~
people say if you want a relationship to last you don ask for too much,
don blame him for not spending time with you,
what matters the most is a steady relationship,
so we're steady ey?*for now* x)
Gonna start working in December,
every morning 720 reach,noooo >.<"
only a month is enough to kill me,
regret-ing ~.~
i'm more used to staying at home all day doing whatever stuff i love,
can sleep anytime..........
......cannot liao eyes keep closing,
off to sleep <3

Thursday, November 25, 2010

little things happened in life

can't wait to watch horror movies with babe *screams*
i know not much possibility though :(
we had lotsa fun yesterday,
ate unhealthy but nice food, *fingers licking*
watched boring movie, but it was nice, leaning on his shoulder and touching him awww..
there is always laughter when he's around,
perhaps should take some pictures too ar,
we always skip this when we hang out,
no picture to put while blogging, 
all words and its all his fault! >:(



Saturday, November 20, 2010

丢了的自己,要记得捡回来……

有时候,莫名的心情不好,不想和任何人说话,只想一个人静静的发呆。

有时候,突然觉得心情烦躁,看什么都觉得不舒服,心里闷的发慌,拼命想寻找一个出口。

有时候,发现身边的人都不了解自己,面对着身边的人,突然觉得说不出话。

有时候,感觉自己与世界格格不入,曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。

有时候,突然很想逃离现在的生活,想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。

有时候,别人突然对你说,我觉得你变了,然后自己开始百感交集。

有时候,希望时间为自己停下,做完己还没来得及做的事情。

有时候,想一个人躲起来脆弱,不愿别人看到自己的伤口。

有时候,突然很想哭,却难过的哭不出来。

有时候,夜深人静,突然觉得不是睡不着,而是固执地不想睡。

有时候,走过熟悉的街角,看到熟悉的背影,突然就想起一个人的脸。

有时候,明明自己心里有很多话要说,却不知道怎样表达。

有时候,觉得自己拥有着整个世界,一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。

真的只是有时候,明明自己身边很多朋友,却依然觉得孤单。

有时候,很想放纵自己,希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。

有时候,突然找不到自己,把自己丢的无影无踪。

有时候,心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪,觉得自己很累很累。

有时候,看不到自己未来的样子,迷茫的不知所措。

有时候,发现自己一夜之间长大了。

有时候,听到一首歌,就会突然想起一个人

有时候,希望能找个人好好疼爱自己,渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候,你却偏执地退隐。

有时候,别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话,心里郁闷的发慌。

有时候,被别人伤害,嘴上讲没事,其实心里难过的要死。

有时候,常常在回忆里挣扎,有很多过去无法释怀。

有时候,很容易感动别人的关怀,有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。

有时候,看着时间一点点流逝,任凭叹息,自己却无能为力。


其实,有时候,真的会想这么多。。。

跟朋友装沉默, 跟陌生人讲心里话。 对于在乎你的,不想让他们担心,有时候,没有消息就是一种好消息。其实 ,很想说“我很好”,或许是昧着心说谎,也只是想把最灿烂的一面,放在每个人对自己印象的首页。。。

Saturday, November 6, 2010

i say..

I am happy to be with you,
cause you're the best thing i've ever had.
I want to be like those strong girls,
stay very firm in their relationships,
fight for their love ones,
I always wanted to be,
but when things happen i'm back to the weak me again.
Sometimes I feel tired and frustrated,
It's not that i don love you, or tired of loving you,
I had many unsuccessful relationships, broke up for uncountable times,
I wanted to be naive, wanted to say forever, i wanted to live my life like the princess in fairy tale,
but reality spells cruel, i know its not gonna be okay in the future,
distance relationship is more than we could imagine, i thought i can overcome this time,
but it seems like i've forgotten about the time,
and i truly dislike the fact that i'm gonna be 8 hours ahead of you,
telling me we're strong is not enough,
tell me who should i look for when i'm in trouble,
tell me who should i look for when i'm in tears,
tell me who should i look for when i need a listener,
I don want to go or think too far,
but I can't, I love you and I do care.
I watch movies, I read, I find jobs,
get myself busy and avoid from thinking.
When i heard that you're leaving, the same feeling came back again when ben told me he was leaving.
Sometimes it's not because of loneliness then i think bout you,
it's when i think of you i feel loneliness.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

*hearts*

因为有你的扶持,所以决定了一定要学会更坚强,
分手两个字说出来很容易,
但真正要做决定时却狠不下心,
在爱情里我第一次这么优柔寡断,
曾经错了一次,也后悔过好久时间了,
不想再后悔多一次。
我好难受,难受到已经没有呼吸的空间了,
觉得我们的感情出了裂缝,
不会再完美了,
我知道你也需要扶持,
知道你听了我的话后很伤心,
但我却一而再的伤你的心,
其实我好怕你受不了,怕你想放弃,怕你说好吧我们分手,
知道吗?有些事情听惯了,却不再被提起后我反而不好受,
觉得我不被在乎了。。
我其实比谁都讨厌寂寞,
我不喜欢当自己一个人时被人家看的那种眼神,
但接下来的日子全部都是靠自己了,
好朋友不在了,
习惯了有他陪伴的伴侣也将走了,
我无助。。所以我想继续朝着梦想走。。
我决定了再也不顾其他问题,
没有人可以拆散我们,
不管了,因为我爱的只有你。



Wednesday, October 27, 2010

他= 我的爱

昨晚是我最快乐的一晚,
有朋友的陪伴,还有最爱的人陪伴,
喜欢看他为我在台上表演,
在他眼里我只看到了我自己的影子,
感觉仿佛每一个字,每一句话都是他为我写的,
喜欢他不服输的个性,
常常从失败中站起来.
和他拍的照片我最喜欢了,
看着照片,总觉得我们是天造地设的一对,
我不能没有他,
因为他远胜于我拥有的一切,
我若没了他的配伴,
就不再是个爱笑的女生,
也没人逗着我玩,把我捧得高高在上.
喜欢他陪着我,无论走到哪里做任何事,
他的配办,永远是我最大的鼓励,
推动着我..

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

:(

有些气自己的无知,
直到后来才发现,
其实身边很多人都是虚情假意,
很多往往没有我想象中的那么好,
甚至有时候人被撇下了,
我却傻傻的什么都不懂,
只有在学校里遇到的朋友才最纯最真,
出了学校踏入人生另一个阶段,
各种各样的人都可能会出现,
这让我看清惟有家人可靠,
如果人人都是这样,
那我不再需要任何朋友,
我有男朋友的陪伴,
他的鼓励他的爱待,
因为有他对我的真诚,
我不再需要其他人.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

给我的男人! ;D

想对你说,不管外面发生了什么事,
我都做你的依靠,
我给你你要的温暖,
给你你需要的安慰,
累了给你靠,
倒下了我扶你起来.
外面有太多的是非,
要来时怎么挡也挡不了,
很多考验需要面对,
人心难测,
被自己身旁的人批评不好受,
知道你委屈了很想替你流泪,
心疼你满肚子委屈却默默不出声,
相信我,我能够做你最忠实的听众,
给你你所要的,
因为我也要保护你,
不让别人伤害你,
我要你快乐,
因为我最爱你了!

Friday, October 1, 2010

付出

知道你为我付出了很多
也知道不容易,每次要承受很多的伤害,
有时候我气自己,因为你要什么我根本不懂,
因为对你来说我是个不及格的女朋友,
我打你骂你吵你闹你,要你逃课,带我去玩,荒废自己的学业。
今天其实不想这样早回家,想陪陪你看看你,但我不能继续当你的绊脚石,
知道如果我留下,会忍不住想和你说话,会忍不住又要你带我去哪里哪里玩,
我不像她们,我没办法像她们一样,她们的温柔,她们的气质,她们的乖巧,她们的善解人意,她们的举止,
如果当初知道在一起后会这样,知道我原来并不是你所想象的那样,
还会要我吗?
我很多方面都不足你,我知道你能够找到更好的,
而你却是我找着中最好的,
你很常会像大炮仙一样讲着自己有多好,这我懂,其实你都说对了。
我很多时候会生闷气,会说很多伤人的话,因为每当我认为自己做得很好时,
你却有很多的不满,我不甘心,为什么我从来没察觉过,
也不甘愿,那种感觉我不会解释。
有想过让你走,找到你真正要的幸福,
因为我不懂表达爱,不懂怎样做才能做到你要的,
不喜欢听你说因为我说我觉得这就是我我没必要改变而一直什么苦都自己吞,
我真的真的很喜欢你很爱你,但如果有一天你要走,我不会留,
这不是潇洒不潇洒的问题,更不是自尊的问题,
是我知道比起现在,你一定会更幸福。

Friday, September 24, 2010

today

We dressed up ourselves well today because it's my very best friend's last day in school.
Seeing her doing all sorts of stuffs filling all kinds of forms i felt a part of mine is being teared slowly from me.
I've known her for not  more than a year but it's like forever.
After school we went to sing k. As usual, we were acting like mad people in the room, dancing like   
there was nobody else in the room, shouting like as if there was no microphone, did stupid things just to take photos..
But this is what she's gonna miss the most. And what i'm gonna miss the most.
At night we had bbq and games in school, had lotsa lotsa fun too that we even wanted to stay in campus for whole night! Whenever there are these people there is fun. No one can be left out.
But she is going to be fine i know, she is going to be the happiest person, like what boyfriend said. So it's okay.
We had the longest hug before leaving. i could see there were tears in their eyes. I felt okay at first but when i got into the car i suddenly felt like crying too. 
I shall learn to grow. God will be watching over her, and me as well. I trust.



Tuesday, September 21, 2010

现实.

终于懂了..
很多人,往往都是生命中的过客..
他们突然间出现在你生活里..
也会跟着时间的流逝而离开..
出现了又离开..
就这样,画下了句点..
害怕分离,是因为我懂..
即使再要好的朋友离开了你..
多年后再重逢,也不可能会像过去一样无所不谈..
是时间,它把人与人之间的感情因距离而拉开了..
在漫长的时间里, 我们都会变.
再次相逢反而会觉得没话题,很尴尬.
与其一直依赖别人,倒不如自己学会独立..
要长大,因为没有人能被依赖一辈子..
再要好再亲密的人,总有一天都会离开..

Monday, September 20, 2010

If there's this day.

Tell me our love can last,
tell me there is forever between you and I,
tell me there will never be any distance between us,
tell me you will be there whenever i need you,
tell me your love for me will never change no matter what happens,
tell me you need me as much as I do,
tell me nothing can tear us apart,
tell me we can face obstacles together,
tell me you'll hold my hand and walk till the very end,
tell me we will never be like strangers even after years later,
tell me you are afraid to lose me,
tell me you will always call me your love instead of your friend,
tell me i'll be the only one you want to kiss with,
tell me i'll be the only you want to hug,
tell me i'll be the only one you want to share your happiness and sadness with,
tell me i'll be the only one you'll think of during rainy days.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

:)

Another boring Sunday at home, stomach is still very full after yesterday wedding dinner.
Talking about the dinner, it was simple, everything went smoothly. Not so much of decoration and ceremony to do cause their main wedding dinner was held in Singapore few days ago. The groom and the bride were both blessed children of God, having a great future ahead. When the love songs were played i was thinking when will it be my turn? in 10 years time?20 years? It's every girls' dream to get married with their loved ones. I envy them a lot cause they can spend every moment together after the wedding. The man can name his beloved as his wife and the wife can name her beloved as her husband, Isn't it just sweet? A relative sitting beside me told me there is no rush in finding a bf, you have to find one who really loves and cares about you. It's normal to have a relationship now, but education is still much more important for you. If you can get a good job next time, then you will be sitting in the flight letting your friends to serve you rather than you serving other people. You will a lot of money to travel. My parents said it's not a bad thing for not getting into airlines now. At least i can focus on my studies. Get a cert before joining will not be too late. But i know myself, I'm just not into studies. I can be really stubborn sometimes instead of saying whatever all the time :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

facts.

* I hate people asking me to change. Hello?this is me. If you don like my way of doing stuff, just back off.  Accept me for who I am. You do not expect people to be perfect do you? I might not even be good, but thats the way I am.

* I appreciate myself, as in the natural side of mine. I am not gonna do anything to my face, to my body. Plastic surgery, breast implantation. No way.

* I can be annoying and unreasonable sometimes. Getting angry without reasons, thinking much and go so mad. Sometimes i feel lonely. Only me myself in my own little world.

* I hate being alone most of the time. I only love to stick with my own friends. And i never talked to new people unless they talk first. I can go very crazy with them IF they make the first move.

* I hate it the most when things change and I have to get used to the new environment. I dislike to get started with new things. very very dislike.

* I smile I laugh all the time. No one knows, I cry easily too. I cry when i'm sad, cry when I feel frustrated, cry  when I'm mad, cry when I feel weak, cry when I miss somebody, cry when I quarrel with families, cry when I quarrel with boyfriend, cry when I feel stress. But I hardly can cry in front of people since then.

* I'm mad with people who do not know why I'm mad.

* I'm lazy to get myself explained. I'll make things very clear at the very beginning.

* I hate period, I can't stand pain.

* I can be evil at times without people knowing.

* I hate waiting for people.

* I love to stick with my boyfriend. friends and boyfriend, for me boyfriend comes first.

* I get distracted very easily.

* There are things I wanted to say but do not know how to make myself clear so most of the time I would rather say don know or it's okay and stay mad for a while. Mad at myself and mad at people because they can never get me if I do not say a single thing. I know my mind cannot be read but still I hope they'll know without me telling.

* I want people to laugh at my jokes instead of getting so serious with it. Sometimes I go far too over because there are times i failed. Failed reminding myself.

* I say a lot of hurting stuff and act like nothing but when it comes to the real situation, I feel really weak.

* I am never strong in a relationship. I only regret after I lost. I need people to lend me a hand to help me to stay strong. Like everytime? >.<

Saturday, September 11, 2010

照片.

我喜欢看我们的照片..
就算看了很多很多次都不会感到厌倦..
因为照片中都流露出你的深情..
你的眼神,你的笑容..
它们都好特别..
很多人说,照片是唯一能泄露很多即使是面对面都看不到秘密..
其实我很常对你的深情着了迷..
这证明你对我有多认真..
只需要一个眼神..
我就可以确定.我没爱错人了. <3

happily ever after

urgh..sick of everything that is happening, ppl forgetting the old ones,
leaving behind something for a new one..thinking they know whats best for them..
not appreciating things in front of them until they regret it.
doing sth for lust and not knowing whats important to them..
but bother on other things which arent right..and they just dont know do they??.
I thought dramas and movies are just shows that ppl directed for fun,
thats based on their creative thinking.
It is.. :S
but i missed sth..
its also based on real lives.. on whats happening out there.
husbands cheating on wives, i wonder why.. are they possibly tired of their wives already?
more and more i've heard.
might as well no need to get married in the first place and wasted their children's time.
if me i would not want to get married until i'm really sure of the man.. 
and naively i thought everyone has a happy ending in their lives..
in fairy tales...
da prince and da princess, they live happily ever after,isn't it that way?
can life be a happy ending and closes its book?
can i get a happily ever after in my life?
owh okay,there is no such thing called happily ever after..
even if there is, problems will just keep happening.
and if problems happen, i'm sure i can hardly find happiness.
in a nutshell, no happily ever after.
there is  only one thing, love and forgive
thats da main source of happiness for couples, and life partners as well :)

hey louis LOY

equals love.need to describe more?XOXO :)

Friday, September 10, 2010

有时候.

有时候,很想闯出外面的世界瞧一瞧..
有时候,很想放纵自己,当个野孩子..
有时候,很想什么都不顾虑..
有时候,很想和你耍耍脾气..
有时候,很多很多很多坏主意出现在脑海里..
>.<

我以为.

一直都以为能够控制自己不去想你很多很多..
听起来好洒脱.不是吗?
就几天罢了,我以为自己不会去想太多..
我也对自己说,就几天啊,如果这都觉得很难挨过来那以后怎么办?
可是我办不到..
我没自己想的那么潇洒..
很想对你说不要离开..
但我不能这么自私..
更不能毁了你..
将来如果我什么都不是,还会要我吗?
我们是不同世界的,这我打从一开始就明白..
你喜欢奋斗,喜欢学习..我却什么都不喜欢..



Thursday, September 9, 2010

='(

寂寞了,你又不在我身边.该怎么好?
我不会去找别人,也不会去理别人..
因为我懂,没有任何人可以取代你的位子..
除了你没有人能逗我开心..
对其他人都提不起劲..
曾几何时我不再想要其他人的陪伴呢?
我也不知道..
所以我会乖乖等你回来..
不吵不闹.. :)
想说话时就把部落格写满满..

rain.

it's really dark outside although now it's only 350pm.
the rain is coming,
remember i told you whenever i see the sky turns dark i'll be very happy?
but i aint today,cause there is no one i can share my happiness with.. :(
wondering where are you and what are you doing there?
are you missing me badly too?^^
all i want is you to be happy.thinking of your cheerful attitude cheers me up
i know,nothing can bother you for long and that's ma boy :D
i want you to go with joy and back with joy too.
i love you

习惯了有你.

喜欢有你的陪伴.
习惯了有你的笑声..
习惯了有你的香味..
习惯了你看我的眼神..
习惯了你在我面前总像个小孩子一样..
习惯了你对我咯嗦..
习惯了你对我的叮咛..
习惯了我们互相打闹..
习惯了你什么都让着我..
习惯了走到哪里都有你的手握着..
习惯了你的肩膀..
习惯了你的怀抱..
习惯了你的吻..
习惯了累时只靠着你,就觉得很幸福了..
习惯了你对我的疼爱..
习惯了你总不嫌弃我,尽管我的一切好坏你都看在眼里..
习惯了下雨天最先想到的是你..
习惯了一进面子书先去看你的档案..
习惯了电话里有你的信息..
习惯了你对我的不厌其烦..
习惯了你的一切一切..
因为你早已成为我生活中的一部分..
占据我的一颗心..

关怀.

早上还没睡醒就接到了你的电话..
看了号码,知道是你..
电话拿在手里,突然心跳得好快..
对~就是那种感觉,虽然在一起什么不像样的事都做了..
但每次听到你的消息或知道将要见到你,
心里还是会紧张.它一直都在为你跳动着..
虽然只有短短那几句话,却满溢着你满满的爱心和关怀..
讲不想你,你信吗?
你那句"不可以哭哦,不然就不疼你了"似乎起不了什么作用..
也不懂为什么,昨晚睡之前想到了你,其实不想哭的,可是眼泪很不争气..
不舒服时,想到你就很容易掉眼眼泪..知道你会心疼,自己心都揪了..
听了很多人的故事,跟自己的爱人在一起,时间久了,再浓再深的爱也会退色..
但爱情变淡时,感情就出现了危机..
另一半不再关心你了,另一半不再对你咯嗦了,另一半不再想找你了..
他们身边出现了其他人..喜新厌旧的遗弃了之前陪他们共同进退的另一半...
后来后悔了,才知道不管怎么绕,都绕不回了..
我们如果在一起久了,感情淡了..也会这样吗?
我其实也怕..因为我没那么好..
怕有一天,你倒回头看,发现其实我并没有什么值得你留念,值得你付出..
很多话,我没讲..我不善于表达..但我有在努力了..
因为真的很爱你了...



Wednesday, September 8, 2010

时间..

没了你的消息,时间仿佛顿时停止了..
微笑也少了,再也打不起精神做任何事..
我笑,我哭,都只为了你..
虽然只有短短几个小时,感觉却像时一辈子..
如果有一天,我们都不再属于彼此..
我们想念的是另外一个他/她..
这种结局,说起来简单..但如果真的失去你..
我就再也不完整..
睡醒了第一时间脑海里闪过的只有你的影子..
满肚的子委屈..你是唯一我想说活想撒娇的对象..
那种想哭的冲动..那种我不熟悉的感觉..
我不黏人,可却想把你黏得紧紧的..
我到哪里,都想看到你的影子..
我不喜欢那种感觉,与我最近的男生..却离我好远..
很多时间都想靠着你,你是我的靠山..
有了你,就算天大的问题,都有你扛着..
被爱人疼爱的滋味..我喜欢...

misses

i miss you,too much till i feel myself like an idiot..
things i have never done before..
words i have never said before..
or maybe i should control :)
really hope you can enjoy your holidays happily without worrying 
lots of love <3






Monday, August 30, 2010

故事

这么多年,我都在和别人说故事。
而自己却没时间去听人家说给我的故事。
今晚是非常非常的谢谢你为我说了一些些故事。
故事虽然不多,也不含有教育性但我还是用心去把它听完。
现在发现原来听故事是那么的开心。
若你有很多很多的故事那就有多好~
当然说故事的人也要有一定的人生经验才行。
让我带你去体会吧~

Saturday, August 28, 2010

尊重♥

女人
她对我来说很重要,在我生命中已见过不同的女人。
但在我心上留下手印的女人就只有三位,三位陪我一同成长的她们是我心灵的支柱。


女人
她对我来说很坚强,她们的痛也只有女人们能体会到。
虽然她们都时不时让我担心但我也没埋怨过,因为她们在我心中已有了一定的地位。


女人
她对我来说很勇敢,她们可以了爱的人牺牲很多很多。
她们可以舍弃全世界只为了陪伴在她生命中的男人身边,付出了爱,付出了关心,也付出了岁月。


女人
她对我来说很无价,再多的金钱也买不到的灵魂。
她们是很值得我去呵护,值得我去坚强,而且勇敢走出我人生的每一步。


女人
她们就是我母亲,我妹妹和我的女朋友
她们的名字依依刻在我心上~
我爱你~我生命中的女人~

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

【提着昨日种种千辛万苦,向明天换一些美满和幸福】


我能够慢慢接受你的一切但我真的很希望,很希望你能把不好全部的慢慢改掉~
只要我们还在一起,我不希望看见你堕落 ~
我只希望你能好好爱我一个,因为我没别的选择了~
除了爱你,就是更爱你~
生命中最重要的那位就只有属于你。。。
为了爱的人而改是值得的,我都做到了~
现在只希望你也一样~
别在让我失望了~