today

We dressed up ourselves well today because it's my very best friend's last day in school.

Seeing her doing all sorts of stuffs filling all kinds of forms i felt a part of mine is being teared slowly from me.

I've known her for not  more than a year but it's like forever.

After school we went to sing k. As usual, we were acting like mad people in the room, dancing like   

there was nobody else in the room, shouting like as if there was no microphone, did stupid things just to take photos..

But this is what she's gonna miss the most. And what i'm gonna miss the most.

At night we had bbq and games in school, had lotsa lotsa fun too that we even wanted to stay in campus for whole night! Whenever there are these people there is fun. No one can be left out.

But she is going to be fine i know, she is going to be the happiest person, like what boyfriend said. So it's okay.

We had the longest hug before leaving. i could see there were tears in their eyes. I felt okay at first but when i got into the car i suddenly felt like crying too. 

I shall learn to grow. God will be watching over her, and me as well. I trust.

现实.

终于懂了..
很多人,往往都是生命中的过客..
他们突然间出现在你生活里..
也会跟着时间的流逝而离开..
出现了又离开..
就这样,画下了句点..
害怕分离,是因为我懂..
即使再要好的朋友离开了你..
多年后再重逢,也不可能会像过去一样无所不谈..
是时间,它把人与人之间的感情因距离而拉开了..
在漫长的时间里, 我们都会变.
再次相逢反而会觉得没话题,很尴尬.
与其一直依赖别人,倒不如自己学会独立..
要长大,因为没有人能被依赖一辈子..
再要好再亲密的人,总有一天都会离开..

If there's this day.

Tell me our love can last,
tell me there is forever between you and I,
tell me there will never be any distance between us,
tell me you will be there whenever i need you,
tell me your love for me will never change no matter what happens,
tell me you need me as much as I do,
tell me nothing can tear us apart,
tell me we can face obstacles together,
tell me you'll hold my hand and walk till the very end,
tell me we will never be like strangers even after years later,
tell me you are afraid to lose me,
tell me you will always call me your love instead of your friend,
tell me i'll be the only one you want to kiss with,
tell me i'll be the only you want to hug,
tell me i'll be the only one you want to share your happiness and sadness with,
tell me i'll be the only one you'll think of during rainy days.

:)

Another boring Sunday at home, stomach is still very full after yesterday wedding dinner.
Talking about the dinner, it was simple, everything went smoothly. Not so much of decoration and ceremony to do cause their main wedding dinner was held in Singapore few days ago. The groom and the bride were both blessed children of God, having a great future ahead. When the love songs were played i was thinking when will it be my turn? in 10 years time?20 years? It's every girls' dream to get married with their loved ones. I envy them a lot cause they can spend every moment together after the wedding. The man can name his beloved as his wife and the wife can name her beloved as her husband, Isn't it just sweet? A relative sitting beside me told me there is no rush in finding a bf, you have to find one who really loves and cares about you. It's normal to have a relationship now, but education is still much more important for you. If you can get a good job next time, then you will be sitting in the flight letting your friends to serve you rather than you serving other people. You will a lot of money to travel. My parents said it's not a bad thing for not getting into airlines now. At least i can focus on my studies. Get a cert before joining will not be too late. But i know myself, I'm just not into studies. I can be really stubborn sometimes instead of saying whatever all the time :)

facts.

* I hate people asking me to change. Hello?this is me. If you don like my way of doing stuff, just back off.  Accept me for who I am. You do not expect people to be perfect do you? I might not even be good, but thats the way I am.

* I appreciate myself, as in the natural side of mine. I am not gonna do anything to my face, to my body. Plastic surgery, breast implantation. No way.

* I can be annoying and unreasonable sometimes. Getting angry without reasons, thinking much and go so mad. Sometimes i feel lonely. Only me myself in my own little world.

* I hate being alone most of the time. I only love to stick with my own friends. And i never talked to new people unless they talk first. I can go very crazy with them IF they make the first move.

* I hate it the most when things change and I have to get used to the new environment. I dislike to get started with new things. very very dislike.

* I smile I laugh all the time. No one knows, I cry easily too. I cry when i'm sad, cry when I feel frustrated, cry  when I'm mad, cry when I feel weak, cry when I miss somebody, cry when I quarrel with families, cry when I quarrel with boyfriend, cry when I feel stress. But I hardly can cry in front of people since then.

* I'm mad with people who do not know why I'm mad.

* I'm lazy to get myself explained. I'll make things very clear at the very beginning.

* I hate period, I can't stand pain.

* I can be evil at times without people knowing.

* I hate waiting for people.

* I love to stick with my boyfriend. friends and boyfriend, for me boyfriend comes first.

* I get distracted very easily.

* There are things I wanted to say but do not know how to make myself clear so most of the time I would rather say don know or it's okay and stay mad for a while. Mad at myself and mad at people because they can never get me if I do not say a single thing. I know my mind cannot be read but still I hope they'll know without me telling.

* I want people to laugh at my jokes instead of getting so serious with it. Sometimes I go far too over because there are times i failed. Failed reminding myself.

* I say a lot of hurting stuff and act like nothing but when it comes to the real situation, I feel really weak.

* I am never strong in a relationship. I only regret after I lost. I need people to lend me a hand to help me to stay strong. Like everytime? >.<

照片.

我喜欢看我们的照片..
就算看了很多很多次都不会感到厌倦..
因为照片中都流露出你的深情..
你的眼神,你的笑容..
它们都好特别..
很多人说,照片是唯一能泄露很多即使是面对面都看不到秘密..
其实我很常对你的深情着了迷..
这证明你对我有多认真..
只需要一个眼神..
我就可以确定.我没爱错人了. <3

happily ever after

urgh..sick of everything that is happening, ppl forgetting the old ones,

leaving behind something for a new one..thinking they know whats best for them..

not appreciating things in front of them until they regret it.

doing sth for lust and not knowing whats important to them..

but bother on other things which arent right..and they just dont know do they??.

I thought dramas and movies are just shows that ppl directed for fun,

thats based on their creative thinking.

It is.. :S

but i missed sth..

its also based on real lives.. on whats happening out there.

husbands cheating on wives, i wonder why.. are they possibly tired of their wives already?

more and more i've heard.

might as well no need to get married in the first place and wasted their children's time.

if me i would not want to get married until i'm really sure of the man.. 

and naively i thought everyone has a happy ending in their lives..

in fairy tales...

da prince and da princess, they live happily ever after,isn't it that way?

can life be a happy ending and closes its book?

can i get a happily ever after in my life?

owh okay,there is no such thing called happily ever after..

even if there is, problems will just keep happening.

and if problems happen, i'm sure i can hardly find happiness.

in a nutshell, no happily ever after.

there is  only one thing, love and forgive

thats da main source of happiness for couples, and life partners as well :)

hey louis LOY

equals love.need to describe more?XOXO :)

有时候.

有时候,很想闯出外面的世界瞧一瞧..
有时候,很想放纵自己,当个野孩子..
有时候,很想什么都不顾虑..
有时候,很想和你耍耍脾气..
有时候,很多很多很多坏主意出现在脑海里..
>.<

我以为.

一直都以为能够控制自己不去想你很多很多..
听起来好洒脱.不是吗?
就几天罢了,我以为自己不会去想太多..
我也对自己说,就几天啊,如果这都觉得很难挨过来那以后怎么办?
可是我办不到..
我没自己想的那么潇洒..
很想对你说不要离开..
但我不能这么自私..
更不能毁了你..
将来如果我什么都不是,还会要我吗?
我们是不同世界的,这我打从一开始就明白..
你喜欢奋斗,喜欢学习..我却什么都不喜欢..

='(

寂寞了,你又不在我身边.该怎么好?
我不会去找别人,也不会去理别人..
因为我懂,没有任何人可以取代你的位子..
除了你没有人能逗我开心..
对其他人都提不起劲..
曾几何时我不再想要其他人的陪伴呢?
我也不知道..
所以我会乖乖等你回来..
不吵不闹.. :)
想说话时就把部落格写满满..

rain.

it's really dark outside although now it's only 350pm.
the rain is coming,
remember i told you whenever i see the sky turns dark i'll be very happy?
but i aint today,cause there is no one i can share my happiness with.. :(
wondering where are you and what are you doing there?
are you missing me badly too?^^
all i want is you to be happy.thinking of your cheerful attitude cheers me up
i know,nothing can bother you for long and that's ma boy :D
i want you to go with joy and back with joy too.
i love you

习惯了有你.

喜欢有你的陪伴.
习惯了有你的笑声..
习惯了有你的香味..
习惯了你看我的眼神..
习惯了你在我面前总像个小孩子一样..
习惯了你对我咯嗦..
习惯了你对我的叮咛..
习惯了我们互相打闹..
习惯了你什么都让着我..
习惯了走到哪里都有你的手握着..
习惯了你的肩膀..
习惯了你的怀抱..
习惯了你的吻..
习惯了累时只靠着你,就觉得很幸福了..
习惯了你对我的疼爱..
习惯了你总不嫌弃我,尽管我的一切好坏你都看在眼里..
习惯了下雨天最先想到的是你..
习惯了一进面子书先去看你的档案..
习惯了电话里有你的信息..
习惯了你对我的不厌其烦..
习惯了你的一切一切..
因为你早已成为我生活中的一部分..
占据我的一颗心..

关怀.

早上还没睡醒就接到了你的电话..
看了号码,知道是你..
电话拿在手里,突然心跳得好快..
对~就是那种感觉,虽然在一起什么不像样的事都做了..
但每次听到你的消息或知道将要见到你,
心里还是会紧张.它一直都在为你跳动着..
虽然只有短短那几句话,却满溢着你满满的爱心和关怀..
讲不想你,你信吗?
你那句"不可以哭哦,不然就不疼你了"似乎起不了什么作用..
也不懂为什么,昨晚睡之前想到了你,其实不想哭的,可是眼泪很不争气..
不舒服时,想到你就很容易掉眼眼泪..知道你会心疼,自己心都揪了..
听了很多人的故事,跟自己的爱人在一起,时间久了,再浓再深的爱也会退色..
但爱情变淡时,感情就出现了危机..
另一半不再关心你了,另一半不再对你咯嗦了,另一半不再想找你了..
他们身边出现了其他人..喜新厌旧的遗弃了之前陪他们共同进退的另一半...
后来后悔了,才知道不管怎么绕,都绕不回了..
我们如果在一起久了,感情淡了..也会这样吗?
我其实也怕..因为我没那么好..
怕有一天,你倒回头看,发现其实我并没有什么值得你留念,值得你付出..
很多话,我没讲..我不善于表达..但我有在努力了..
因为真的很爱你了...

时间..

没了你的消息,时间仿佛顿时停止了..
微笑也少了,再也打不起精神做任何事..
我笑,我哭,都只为了你..
虽然只有短短几个小时,感觉却像时一辈子..
如果有一天,我们都不再属于彼此..
我们想念的是另外一个他/她..
这种结局,说起来简单..但如果真的失去你..
我就再也不完整..
睡醒了第一时间脑海里闪过的只有你的影子..
满肚的子委屈..你是唯一我想说活想撒娇的对象..
那种想哭的冲动..那种我不熟悉的感觉..
我不黏人,可却想把你黏得紧紧的..
我到哪里,都想看到你的影子..
我不喜欢那种感觉,与我最近的男生..却离我好远..
很多时间都想靠着你,你是我的靠山..
有了你,就算天大的问题,都有你扛着..
被爱人疼爱的滋味..我喜欢...

misses

i miss you,too much till i feel myself like an idiot..

things i have never done before..

words i have never said before..

or maybe i should control :)

really hope you can enjoy your holidays happily without worrying 

lots of love <3